Growing As A Parent

Nights like this I find out just how much I need to have grace and patience for my little man. This week has been a trying week between Logan and myself. He is getting to that stage where he is trying to push his limits with me and I am at that stage where I am trying to hold my own ground with him. I must admit trying to hold my own ground with him would probably not be as trying as it is if I weren't pregnant and dealing with everything that comes with pregnancy. As it is, I am being stretched thin.

This morning started out great, got Logan up, changed his diaper, got him juice, snuggled on the sofa for a while, and then began cleaning the house. Logan loves helping me clean and help out in general, so I let him. He got out his vacuum cleaner while I got mine out and we vacuumed the floors. He got his broom out and I got mine to sweep the kitchen floors. But then our trouble started. I asked little man if he could take a card that I found in the kitchen and go place it on mommy or daddy's computer desk and he said no. I said, "okay" and placed it back on the counter top. He started to throw a fit because now he wanted it, so I gave in and gave it to him and asked him again to go set it on mommy or daddy's desk. He walked off and so I thought that's what he did... until I heard our bedroom door slam. I typically wouldn't be stressed or frustrated by this except Chris was trying to sleep after a long night of work. As I walked to our bedroom door to open it I found that it was locked. Logan had locked the door behind him and started talking/ knocking loudly at the bedroom door. Since we do not have keys for the bedroom doors we have to use a small flat head screwdriver to unlock our doors. Now hunting them down is no easy task since we're always moving around or taking them from Logan. Anyway, I finally got the door unlocked and Logan out of the bedroom door, and Chris fell back asleep. My temper was now short at this time, and for the rest of the afternoon.

When Chris woke up I asked if he could pray over me, because I felt like I was starting to feel like Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde. I know my hormones are going in all directions, I am tired as can be and no matter how much sleep I get it doesn't help, and with not having much of an appetite I get cranky... with all that said I should try to have more control and grace for Logan.

Well, tonight as I started to make our bed, I found the card that I asked Logan to put on my desk, and I felt terrible. Little man must have only heard me say, "mommy and daddy" when he had the card and took the card to daddy instead of the computer desk. At that moment I had no words only feelings and bad thoughts about myself and my parenting. Although Logan won't understand mommy being humble right now, I can still try to show him tomorrow morning when he is awake how sorry I am and that I messed up.

God has blessed Chris and I with such a wonderful little boy that I sometimes forget that he's only two and not five, because he acts older than what he really is. I know children don't come with instruction manuals, although I wish they did, I still need to pray and remind myself to have grace, wisdom, and patience for my children. I am still growing and learning as a person and as a parent and I don't excuse my behavior, but I share this story so that I can return back to this very moment and remind myself of how much I need God's grace in my life.

My Husband Is BRILLIANT!

So you would think after nine and half years of being together with my love his work and accomplishments would stop being impressive to me, right? Well, on the contrary it just makes me admire him more and more. He's not one to brag about his work, but then that's why he married me because I will do it for him.

Long story short, apparently this site called Delicious.com is/was getting ready to disappear, but Chris loved using it along with many others. Well, that did not stop my husband from coming up with his own better version of the app and make it his own. It's still very new seeing as he kicked it out in about eight to ten hours last night and still in alpha state as he puts it. But it has already had so many hits and word of mouth that it is becoming big news in the internet world.

He amazes me and constantly blows my mind with the things he develops. Proud little, but loud redheaded wife right here!

Check out the article written about his app right here. Check out his app 1R7.

Baby Bump Is Coming In

I know I haven't posted in awhile and I still have entries that need to be posted. But I have been extremely busy... got to love the holiday season. Hopefully I can get all the entries out next week sometime.

Until then, enjoy my last week of my first trimester baby bump pictures.