Well, with every pregnancy of course comes recovery. I wish I could say that I have had a smooth transition this time after my pregnancy, but well, I haven't. Smooth in some cases but difficult in others. My difficulty this time around has been with breastfeeding as everyone has been made aware in prior postings. I felt like breastfeeding would come natural and easy, since I really had no complications before. However, I have found out that breastfeeding is not like riding a bike, so to speak.
To catch everyone up who follows me (us), I have had to say good-bye to breastfeeding this time around. There wasn't a lack of trying, even after I healed the first time and second time I thought I give it one more shot. I am sad to say that the third time was not the charm for me. After having one really rough and scary night with Eli I had made up my mind that's it's just not worth it.
I have my good days and bad days about not being able to breastfeed Eli. Although I know it's not the end of the world and many, many babies out there go on living perfectly healthy lives only being feed formula I am still having a difficult time adjusting to the formula feeding concept. I may go more into depth with what happened to my body and the problems I encountered, but right now I can not without breaking down in tears. As of right now I feel like a failure as a woman, a wife, and mother.
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